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Ego v's Emotion

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 Emotion/Ego Whilst coding the data collected throughout the research, I have found two major overarching themes, ego, and emotion. However, I have had one of those lightbulb moments when reading them all. Whilst looking at my questions with more of a critical lens and thinking how I could develop my research in the future and minimise any variables or misunderstandings of the questions, I have had another realisation. I have asked open ended questions throughout the process that have given the participants a chance to answer from any realm of their own realities, but they have put themselves in either camp (ego/emotion) without meaning to. A couple of participants are sat on the side-lines and thinking about it from multiple angles and put ideas forward that suggest they are balanced between the two. I've also realised that my last couple of questions are more of a guided question asking the participants where they lie within the two concepts  (again not mentioning the ...

More realisations than years of therapy...

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  I started making notes on what to write in my first blog of the module only a few weeks ago. What is quite interesting is reading those comments back now and realising how I've had a huge changing moment throughout the process of module 3 so far. I've started collating my thoughts and diary entries over the whole process and can really see my driving force. I have spent so many years with what I've felt is imposter syndrome in my career, if I was to be completely honest, in life.  I've never felt good enough. I have done the exams needed, had the performance experiences and continued my learning, however, I've never lived up to the standards I've set on myself because I didn't know every single answer.  Who can know every single answer to every single question? I sat and questioned how I got to this point, what drew me to this masters and really stepped back through my major life events. Through a real reflective period of acknowledging where my true purpo...